For those that follow us on social media, know that my surgery date is less than a week away. I was fortunate to be on a cancellation list and the university student waiting for the same surgery is in the middle of finals...lucky for me! When I received the call, my clock started counting down.
Two weeks. Two weeks to get our flights and accommodation for my family booked, a business and staff to prep for months of me being away and at the helm, schedules to re-schedule and two weeks to wrap my head around the life changing surgery I will undergo. TWO WEEKS!
My lists are long and one by one checking off each item I need to get done. I'm actually glad that I only have two weeks. One might say that I'm a procrastinator or that on most days, fly by the seat of my pants. One would be right. For me, I have always worked best under timelines and pressure and giving me any more time would result in the same outcome; I would do it all in the last two weeks anyway.
As scary as this is, I have tried to remain positive and upbeat and focus on the recovery rather than the surgery itself. It served me well when I battled cancer and can only help here too. It's the quiet moments by myself, I can feel fear creeping up. (which I think is perfectly normal) Your mind can go to a pretty dark place quite easily if you allow it.
I don't believe this is my time.
My husband and I will be celebrating 20 years of marriage this August. I need to be there for that. My daughter will one day marry the man of her dreams. I need to be there for that. At some point my parents are going to need me as they begin to age. I need to be there for that. My nieces and nephews will be having babies someday. I need to be there for that. My friends will be getting married again, having grandchildren and other major milestones. I need to be there for that.
I'm going to be there for that.
In advance, I thank everyone for the thoughts, prayers and good vibes. Whatever your faith, there is power in numbers and willing one to heal. In TWO WEEKS I plan to be on the road to recovery!
xo Marla
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Marla, I feel honoured to be able to share in your journey to health again. You have inspired many people, including myself. Wishing you a speedy recovery. I will be thinking of you and your family often in the next few weeks. Take care and heal quickly!
Diana
You will be in our thoughts and prayers. We will be there for that!!! Hugs and love. Karen and Jack