For those that follow us on social media, know that my surgery date is less than a week away. I was fortunate to be on a cancellation list and the university student waiting for the same surgery is in the middle of finals...lucky for me! When I received the call, my clock started counting down.
Two weeks. Two weeks to get our flights and accommodation for my family booked, a business and staff to prep for months of me being away and at the helm, schedules to re-schedule and two weeks to wrap my head around the life changing surgery I will undergo. TWO WEEKS!
My lists are long and one by one checking off each item I need to get done. I'm actually glad that I only have two weeks. One might say that I'm a procrastinator or that on most days, fly by the seat of my pants. One would be right. For me, I have always worked best under timelines and pressure and giving me any more time would result in the same outcome; I would do it all in the last two weeks anyway.
As scary as this is, I have tried to remain positive and upbeat and focus on the recovery rather than the surgery itself. It served me well when I battled cancer and can only help here too. It's the quiet moments by myself, I can feel fear creeping up. (which I think is perfectly normal) Your mind can go to a pretty dark place quite easily if you allow it.
I don't believe this is my time.
My husband and I will be celebrating 20 years of marriage this August. I need to be there for that. My daughter will one day marry the man of her dreams. I need to be there for that. At some point my parents are going to need me as they begin to age. I need to be there for that. My nieces and nephews will be having babies someday. I need to be there for that. My friends will be getting married again, having grandchildren and other major milestones. I need to be there for that.
I'm going to be there for that.
In advance, I thank everyone for the thoughts, prayers and good vibes. Whatever your faith, there is power in numbers and willing one to heal. In TWO WEEKS I plan to be on the road to recovery!
If you want to know more about my heart's journey, click here.